Social vs. School

I never took into consideration how much things at home affected things in the classroom. I didn't realize that just because someone can smile in a class, it doesn't mean that they have it altogether.

Being a military brat comes with some high job qualifications. You have to be able to pick up and leave on a moments notice and you have to hold your head high when you realize a loved one is deploying. It's hard watching shows like the Real World with people like Ryan who blow up PTSD and continue to bash the war.

EVERYONE dies. EVERY single body will come to an end. When it's your time to go, you're gonna go. We had a family friend who was a Catholic priest for 22 years pull over to the side of the road to help a man get a tree off the road so they could continue driving. Right after they moved the tree, another one fell, landed on our friend, and ended his life.

I don't like writing about sad things, but there is stuff in like that is just unpreventable. There is no way to evade death. You can prolong life, you can try to beat the system, but it's going to happen to everyone. Some circumstances are worse off than others, but it's going to happen.

I'm trying to figure out a healthy way to not think about the whole "the love of my life is going to war" issue and how to deal with not having my significant other home. It's not easy listening to people talk about the war in a negative tone and not say something. I'm not completely for it since the reason we went in is not the same reason we are leaving with. But I completely support my boyfriend and every other service member overseas. Leaving family and friends behind is by far the hardest thing anyone could do.

So in total, I'm trying to not think about the circumstance. It's not always easy to smile and deep down, it does affect daily life. But I think the motivation to move forward and provide an image for woman of military background of "I'm strong and I can get through this tour" is worth the pain and committment.